i dont know why i bother. sometimes it just seems like i keep this stupid thing going for nostalgia, i don't want to let go of it because when i was in eighth grade this was my myspace. funny how it seems that i(we) feel the need for an online-community-bullshit-and-such kind of site. i dont know why i bother.

also, i dont know why i bother with this whole imagination thing. if getting your heart broken feels anything like this(see below), then i'm pretty damn good.

(my name goes here)

the tears lining my eyes
so delicately
watching you walk away
(little did I know
this day would change my life)
--
i can still picture us
laughing, smiling
we were supposed to be in
l o v e
(you know, the kind you used to write about
you thought you were such a poet
as you put my name in every title)
you kissed me like i was the one
held me like i was the one
whispered sweet nothings to me like i was the one
--
i could feel you slipping away
you came home late
and you couldnt look me in the eye
(oh, but i loved you for trying)
we stopped talking and laughing
you started lying
i started crying
we started fighting
but we loved each other, we LOVED each other
we loved each other, i suppose
--
and i watched you go
choking on regrets,
silently hoping you would
turn around
(no, no! we're in LOVE
we'll get through this, we will
thats what love does
makes everything magically better)
--
and we loved each other, i suppose

blahh so i feel like i fucked things over badly.

woops.

sometimes you just do things you cant take back though(annnd those are the things you regret the most) suckishness of the suckersucks.

yesterday was fun. today is ________. tomorrow is ________. monday is _________.

yeah for the three blanks we'll see, because they havent happened yet.

The other popular style of dress focuses on darker colors, and is more influenced by Goth fashion. Common to the emo stereotype is straight, dark colored hair (either black, red, or multi-colored ) which covers one eye (or the entire face). Males are pictured wearing pants tailored for females with a punk-rock style studded belt. Lip, eyebrow, and labret piercings are common throughout the style. Dark make-up (most notably black eyeliner, although red and pink eyeshadow is becoming increasingly popular) is present on both girls and boys. A common accessory for both males and females is glasses with a dark coloured (usually black), thick rim-- a style even sometimes worn by people not requiring corrective eye-wear. Wristbands, usually black, but in other various colors are also popular as well as other items adorning the wrist, such as studded bracelets. Another increasingly popular accessory is sweatbands or arm socks, often sporting band logos.

A Promise is(nt) a Promise

i close my eyes and remember the days
when we would chase dreams like
we would chase fireflies
and we only cried over
skinned knees
and broken dolls
(never broken hearts and
scathed up wrists, ohno)
and as we grew older we
always promised we would never be
like those girls
but look what we've become,
mirror images of
our mistakes and pain
its ohso obvious now that
good girls grow up to be
bad whores