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Tuesday, 30 January 2007

  • i dont know why i bother. sometimes it just seems like i keep this stupid thing going for nostalgia, i don't want to let go of it because when i was in eighth grade this was my myspace. funny how it seems that i(we) feel the need for an online-community-bullshit-and-such kind of site. i dont know why i bother.

    also, i dont know why i bother with this whole imagination thing. if getting your heart broken feels anything like this(see below), then i'm pretty damn good.

    (my name goes here)

    the tears lining my eyes
    so delicately
    watching you walk away
    (little did I know
    this day would change my life)
    --
    i can still picture us
    laughing, smiling
    we were supposed to be in
    l o v e
    (you know, the kind you used to write about
    you thought you were such a poet
    as you put my name in every title)
    you kissed me like i was the one
    held me like i was the one
    whispered sweet nothings to me like i was the one
    --
    i could feel you slipping away
    you came home late
    and you couldnt look me in the eye
    (oh, but i loved you for trying)
    we stopped talking and laughing
    you started lying
    i started crying
    we started fighting
    but we loved each other, we LOVED each other
    we loved each other, i suppose
    --
    and i watched you go
    choking on regrets,
    silently hoping you would
    turn around
    (no, no! we're in LOVE
    we'll get through this, we will
    thats what love does
    makes everything magically better)
    --
    and we loved each other, i suppose

Thursday, 18 January 2007

  • I stayed home today. I really have been feeling ill lately. I had a good weekend the last weekend. I bought books. I'm reading Forever in Blue and I'm excited. Its pretty good so far. But I'm also excited to read Pretties and Specials because Uglies was awesome and I want to know what else happensssss because they are sequels too. I love reading. If anybody has any books they want me to read I'll read them (because I love sharing books with people too)! Lalalaaa. I want some chicken...OH and we are having chicken for dinner! Now I'm watching Harry and his bucketful of Dinosaurs on tv. Nikki called me at lunch twice and WOKE ME UP! no lol I was already waking up. I had a dream about being on the Mayflower and we were all dying and our mouths were bleeding (black blood!) and everyone was just dying and going crazy. It was a scary dream but I escaped (see, the Mayflower was ACTUALLY my church in my dream so we werent REALLY on the sea) and I ran through a forest with a couple of other people and I LIVED! Yay!!

    Pipe Dream

    morning spells ecstasy and
    pale moonlight shadows casting
    doubts on the bedroom floor
    cold and distant from where you've been
    you realize that the tears have dried and the
    pain has disappeared but
    the ghost still remains of the ache you once had
    and the life that once was
    of the brokenness, hurtfulness, hatefulness
    shattered to pieces and
    invisibly painting your walls the color of
    shame and you can feel your eyes
    scream that daylight will never feel the same
    no more chances left untaken but the hard truth remains that
    your still the same person, unchanged by your dreams,
    that you were when you went to your deep submissive sleep
    so you can say and repeat
    say and repeat
    that today’s the day of change but
    your mirrors scream liar and your
    face says your name that you
    thought you forgot but
    you always stay the same
    and it wasn’t a dream you now see
    but a taunting nightmare
    of what you want life to be

Saturday, 13 January 2007

  • blahh so i feel like i fucked things over badly.

    woops.

    sometimes you just do things you cant take back though(annnd those are the things you regret the most) suckishness of the suckersucks.

    yesterday was fun. today is ________. tomorrow is ________. monday is _________.

    yeah for the three blanks we'll see, because they havent happened yet.

    The other popular style of dress focuses on darker colors, and is more influenced by Goth fashion. Common to the emo stereotype is straight, dark colored hair (either black, red, or multi-colored ) which covers one eye (or the entire face). Males are pictured wearing pants tailored for females with a punk-rock style studded belt. Lip, eyebrow, and labret piercings are common throughout the style. Dark make-up (most notably black eyeliner, although red and pink eyeshadow is becoming increasingly popular) is present on both girls and boys. A common accessory for both males and females is glasses with a dark coloured (usually black), thick rim-- a style even sometimes worn by people not requiring corrective eye-wear. Wristbands, usually black, but in other various colors are also popular as well as other items adorning the wrist, such as studded bracelets. Another increasingly popular accessory is sweatbands or arm socks, often sporting band logos.

    A Promise is(nt) a Promise

    i close my eyes and remember the days
    when we would chase dreams like
    we would chase fireflies
    and we only cried over
    skinned knees
    and broken dolls
    (never broken hearts and
    scathed up wrists, ohno)
    and as we grew older we
    always promised we would never be
    like those girls
    but look what we've become,
    mirror images of
    our mistakes and pain
    its ohso obvious now that
    good girls grow up to be
    bad whores

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